In the midst of it all

Depression sucks. I mean it really sucks especially when it is something you really can't control because of someone disrespecting you. I have been through a range of emotions these last couple of months, trying to put on a brave face for all to see. Sometimes though, all I want to do is crawl in a hole and hide forever.
When you trust someone and they break that trust multiple times it hurts. Sometimes a sixth sense kicks in after being hurt so much and you just know you aren't getting the whole story. But be that as it may, this is life! You evaluate and reevaluate the people in your life and decide whether to go on with them or not. A lot of reevaluating has been going on in my world. Still not sure which way I am going because of the hurt and confusion. I don't want to make any rash decision.

This week I knew I was going to gain weight. Simply because that is the way my body operates I lose for 2 -3 weeks and then I gain a few pounds. If this would have happened 9 months ago I probably would have given up, but because I have come so far I am not doing that. There are so many other things going on in my life right now that I really can't afford to walk away from my new way of eating. So I go on with the diet, I go on with my life and I just ask that you pray for me. I am really hurting, I am depressed and I need all the help I can get. Until next time friends, I will see you on the other side ~ Drew